3… 2… 1…
Everybody leave the place if you don´t have a plan B for your feelings… JA! I
knew about it, you are still there.
Ok some
time ago I started this impossible thing that is called analyze the girl you
like and everything took a shape that I never expected, however every kiss and
moment drag me down to what I am right now, what I think and even what I expect
to live. Going back to the plan B I have one called “This is my mistake” and is
not that easy let´s go back in time for a moment ok?
Kind
of marriage with a fucked up end.
Kind
of small relationships that based on sex I ended bored.
Kind
of quiet time realizing how afraid I am of myself.
Kind of,
kind of and more kind of bullshit That honestly I don´t regret and teach me how
to improve as a… predator we can say, jejeje, on a life short term I keep
finding more feelings with the last girl I met, more things that I haven´t
explained to not get sick of it or haven’t understand to let her change me… and
she does is freaking scary, believe me she does change every cell and I kind of
hate it while it happens because I love doing it for her, finally I found a
love comedy on my life, one so strong that not even she can make it disappear from
my mind or make me quit to live it.
I have a
good answer about what I feel and I still need to go deeper on this even if I
have to do it alone and crawl my way back saving every moment on my mind, every
kiss on my lips and every smile on my eyes… yeahhh I know it sounds stupid but
it is what I want to feel, what I want live day by day after all the crap I
have taken in my past. No one has the right to deny a kiss, at once I took the
risk to kiss her and found myself on it smiling as an idiot seeing the sunset
inviting her to have a breakfast knowing that time, universe and energy will be
against us.
How do I
know about it? That´s easy karma is so funny that I bet myself at once I know
more of her I´ll be just falling on pieces melted on her essence…
This is mi
mistake: No one can stop it, resolve it or see it coming… I´ll stay there for
her even if she doesn´t want me to or need me for. This plan is made for
suicide hearts that ask for a simple answer after a complicated question… Want
to feel the next level?
